Wow what a hot day out there today. Beautiful but my pitiful fatigued body has a hard time with it. The sunshine makes me happy but I kinda feel grumpy lately. What’s the root of these feelings? I often ask myself this and can sometimes figure it out.
Today : heat, menopause ( maybe), dehydration, spending all day with the kids but feeling like I failed as a mom because I can’t do more with them, missing my Madison who I’m sure is not missing me ( she’s at camp), feeling frustrated about the mess I live in because I am unable to steam up enough energy to work and organize. ( I think once the kids are back in school the mess will lessen).
Even through all these depressing feelings I know I am where I am supposed to be in life. I remind myself I am not a bad mom. I take my kids places where I can sit ( including cultus water slides next week) and be comfortable. I took them glamping for 2 days without Aaron, played chess a couple times ( boys just taught me). I know doing things with my kids doesn’t make me a good or bad mom but it feels that way sometimes. It makes me smile thinking about Madison and her cabin pack driving the counsellors crazy with all their giggles.
As I was saying. We all have times of ups and downs and yes being very fatigued sucks, but I sure appreciate those moments when I do get a bit of energy or have a good day physically. Today I read a passage in my bible that someone from bible study highlighted for me. I thought wow how appropriate after today’s feelings. Here it is ,
I am going to be ok. It says so right there 👆🏻. I thought of so many who are going through tough times and hope this encourages them too. I feel like this is God saying that my scars and sickness don’t define me. Good and bad He is right by my side and yours. 🌞